Unattainable

12/22/07


So its in the morning.. lol.. this is random.. ok well.. My dad called my phone this morning.. (and woke me up) and tried as hard as hell to get her to come up for christmas.. and I know she wants to.. but we just dont have enough money...


I want to go so bad though... its not even funny.. I mean I want to stay and spend time with nick and Courtney.. but I want to go home and spend time with my family.. and eat christmas dinner.. at three in the afternoon on Christmas eav... I want to see lacey and kyle.. and see how big conner is..


I want to see how the twins are doing... Ive only seen Emily and Elizabeth twice in my life... There my sisters.. I should see them more often... I just want to go home.. visit some old friends... do something... I cant stay here.. and just keep going in this stupid Cicrle... where what I want for christmas is an unattainable dream... I cant do that.. I want to go home where I get my family for christmas... but I know we wont... my hopes and dreams are unattainable


(can you tell unattainable is my new fav word)