Homecoming

Hello all,

I hate to bore everyone with simple facts about myself, so I'll keep things very simple.

My name is Jessica, Im fifteen years old. (give me 19 days and Ill be 16) I'm a sophomore at my high school. I love reading, and music. And I hope to become a psycologist, or counceler.

Theres one oober bad thing about me though, I seem to attract more gay guys, then straight ones. =] Though it seems funny now, it becomes a real hassel. (so thats enough about me hehe)

So last night was homecoming, and maybe I expected to much, or just was too excited, but by an hour into the dance, I was like having no fun. When I went to Sarah Scott we had Snowball, and it was such a big deal. It was like a junior prom, and things were always so much fun. It was huge. But this homecoming, though the set up was nice and all, was like boring. I mean they didnt play a variety of music, they just played a genre. None of my favorite songs got played, and they didnt even play Gimme More, which is getting up there in the charts now people and its awesome for dancing. Well anyways, there music sucked, and the chaperones! Oh the chaperones they DID NOT do a good job, they just stood there in a clump and talked the whole dance. I walked back to the table my stuff was on to check my cell messages, and two people had sex... in a chair. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. Not only was that SLUTTY but it was just gross.

And to top all of it off, none of the people I came with wanted to dance, WTFH why would you come to homecoming if your not going to dance? I mean seriously, I just it made me so mad. Everyonce in a while I would get Courtney to dance with me but that was it. Then there was a little drama with courtney and sebastian... (which kinda makes the whole under the sea thing.. really cute but) The thing is... I wasnt about to help. Ok I like this guy, I really do. But Courtney announced to everyone, and see I usually dont do that when I like someone, actually I usually deny it till I cant deny it anymore. Well anyways, I just left sebastian and courtneys mess alone most of the time, till it came when he and carol were always standing next to each other, thats when I noticed Carol was sitting there blatantly flirting with sebastian even though courtney had just said she liked him. I wanted to kill Carol. I like the guy and I wouldnt even do that.

These past few days Ive really gotten to know carol, and I cant stand her. It really drove me insane. So in the end i just endid up sitting at my table (AFTER the sex freaks left) I danced with Ben (who btw.. Is gay) on the one slow song they played. And Frankie on a few fast songs. But mainly with MG, Tiffany, and Courtney.

It really sucked that Nick couldnt go, I mean I think I would have had a lot more fun with him there. He wouldnt have let me go off alone, he wouldnt have let me get upset, he wouldnt have let it be bad.

Speaking of nick, Im starting to get really close to him, and I'm sharing a lot more now with him then I had, because I put up a wall at school. And usually, people dont get to see past it, but... Somehow nick got a full account of a story that I usually dont share details about. And now that he knows, it seems like I want to depend on him. But thats what marks for... Marks already super jealous that I even hang out with nick as much as I do. Its really getting to me, Ive never seen a gay guy more jealous then mark. :)

ANYWAYS.. wow.. that was a lot of probably useless info for you.

Love always,

Jessica